For someone who once lived so unconsciously to the point that my body ground to a halt in 2007 with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, you’d think I’d have learnt to balance my life a little better.
There are 2 things I am really passionate about: my family/home life and my work. In fact, I can be a bit of a workaholic at times, and when I see the positive impact of what I teach on my clients, it sometimes makes me over reach myself to want to do more, and more, and more...
I find it really hard at times to balance my home life with my work, and often when work is going great and things at home not so great, I’ll throw myself into my work even more, and vice versa. I often have conflict between these two great desires. It’s a constant on-going balancing act.
I was on a call with someone enquiring about my coaching services this week, and as we were talking she mentioned she was deeply interested in learning about nutrition, but felt embarrassed that she doesn’t always eat that well. I pulled up the reins on the conversation, and said...
“Woohaa, hold on a minute! Just because I’m a nutritionist do you think there aren’t days when I eat crappy food and don’t nourish my body properly?”
I am a work in a progress, like everyone else. Let’s be real.
My learning has taken a massive spiritual turn for me in recent years, and has admittedly made my life more incredible than I ever could have imagined when I was ill, but at the same time it has made the journey a very bumpy one of intense learning. It can be relentless and tiring sometimes, and on occasions I just want to shout, “Stop, I want to get off for a bit!” But it’s not possible, the process of awakening happens all by itself.
I’ve always been a bit of an ‘all or nothing girl’, so have a tendency to go to extremes.
Though these days it tends to be in healthier things, however you can still over stretch in that too, and very recently I came unstuck. I’ve started working with a personal trainer, and as I’m hypermobile I wanted to build strength and muscle around my joints to create more stability. My trainer quite rightly pointed out that I needed to be more active throughout the day, not just at the gym, so I committed to wearing my pedometer everyday to track my steps. Me being me, I went at it full pelt and went straight into doing 10k steps per day, which is about 5 miles, which on top of everything else my day involves, has turned out to be too much. My blood sugar levels went crazy as I wasn’t eating anywhere near enough calories for the increase in activity, and by the end of the first week I crashed with tiredness.
I’ve reined it back in now and am more sensibly increasing my activity slowly each week. Once again lesson learnt! We all learn through experience and I’ve always been up for experiencing life to its fullest, but often not by taking the easiest route.
I had a conversation with a fellow coach recently and he gave me some wonderfully insightful advice... He said:
“My hunch is that what is being called for is you owning your struggles (or even allowing yourself to have struggles) first. When you have a perfect life, we’ll love you the way we love a statue in the park. When you live a life that is imperfect, messy and intimate, we will love you because we can see ourselves in you”.
I know my clients will find me deeply honest and open about my imperfect life, but I might not be so good at sharing that beyond my clients, family and close friends. Trust me, I’m a work in progress and will be to the day I die.